daydreams

No no, it's not my romance. Definitely not. This isn't one of those "my friend (but it's actually me)" stories. It's really about one of my officemates, and my arrogance. Haha.

Right. So there's this new guy in our department whom everyone (else) seems to be taken with. Nothing / no one special in my opinion, but I'm not going to criticize those who like him. He's not bad looking after all, and especially compared to the rest of the guys in our office (who are, unfortunately, bad looking (Yes, lightning will strike me now)), he looks pretty decent. And so not surprisingly, some girls liked him on sight. At least that's how it seemed during the last time our department was all in one room (which, incidentally was just last Friday).

Anyway, I've told you how our team is divided up into several teams, right? And I've told you how the team I'm part of, has always been somewhat, er, detached, from the rest of the group, right? Because I'm arrogant, I'm going to say it's because we're smarter. But seriously, I think the job we do is slightly more difficult than the others, except for those that do accounting (because I think that's really really hard). Anyway, we're kind of known as over achievers in the department, I guess because our results are good (although the truth really is that we're just lucky). The point being, since we're detached from everyone else, we don't really get to be friends with everyone (or at least, I don't. Because I'm not friendly).

Anyway, I was talking about romance, right? What does all this have to do with that?

Well, I happen to know (and yes, I don't have solid proof, but really it doesn't take a genius to know if a guy's at the very least "interested", right? Now, if I wanted to know if he was "serious", then that's another story, but we're only on the "interested" level at this point), that that new guy is "interested" in one of my teammates.

How can I tell? Well...

1. He talks to her every chance he gets.
2. He sends her personal e-mails.
3. He hangs around where she's hanging around. And;
4. (This is the ultimate clincher) He waited for her shift to finish (and she finishes 4 hours later than he does) so he could take the bus with her home.

Of course, all of that can be misconstrued, and he could just be really really friendly with girls, but as far as I know, he hasn't treated anyone the same.

Anyway, my friend (yes, my teammate, the girl he's interested in) told me that he's not really all that. He's a somewhat boring conversationalist, and not really all that interesting. But we all told her to give him a chance since, first impressions are never all that accurate anyway, and besides, it's just so cool, that the one who's caught the eye of the new, er, "cutie" (yes, this term will remain in " " marks because I don't agree with it) in the department is someone from our team, you know, the "detached" unfriendly team. (Although the girl I'm talking about is really the friendliest in our bunch.)

It would be so cute to see them together. Although it may mean that our friend wouldn't have lunch with us anymore. (And breakfast! Oh no! The horror!) Ah, but that I guess is a small price to pay if I could see her happy. I mean, happy with a guy. I just hope he doesn't turn out to be a stalker or whatever, because that would be really really mean of the world, to play a prank like that on my friend. DX

Right. In case it's not already obvious, I'm so very childish about these things. Wala lang, sorry, pasensya na, walang life 'eh, kaya ayan, kinikilig ako sa lovelife ng ibang tao. :P Hehehe.

The lesson that day was Experiences. And the sentence pattern went:

Question: [action/experience + verb Ta-form] koto ga arimasu ka?
Answer: Hai, arimasu.

Literally translated as:

Q: Have you ever [action/experience]?
A: Yes, I have.

And because our teacher had a sense of humor, one of the sample questions we could choose from, to which we would base our answers on was

Have you ever had your heart broken?

My friend and I being the bitterest bitter girls of the world, suppressed a laugh, and chose a different question to share with the class, but talked about that question again amongst ourselves when the class ended.

"I have an answer to that," she said.

"Okay," I said, taking the bait. "Have you ever had your heart broken?"

"Just once. But it scarred me for life," she said, and laughed at her own answer. And then she said to me, "Have you ever had your heart broken?"

I laughed too, and thought of my own answer; "Many times. But always by the same person."

We both laughed again. As if it was funny. Of course, we were only exaggerrating. But the very fact that there was something to exaggerrate, isn't exactly something to laugh about. Or maybe it is, and we're just being too melodramatic for our own good. Yeah, it's never good when you and your friend are both heartbroken and crazy. You laugh about the stupidest things.

(Literally translated as: More* Cool Males)

*and when I say "more", I mean it in the quantitative sense, and not qualitative :P

Anyways, we interrupt the Sorimachi Takashi fangirling with this post on my other GTO crush, who although has captivated my attention since 2005 (when I saw the trailer for Onatsuki), has so far been in the backseat of my thoughts, mostly because I hadn't seen him anywhere else. (Plus, back then, he was overshadowed by my blind admiration for Edison Chen.) But now that I've seen him in GTO, I believe he deserves more attention, despite all the news of his, er, insanity. (I'll tell you more about that later. Or you can just look it up yourself. There's tons of info on the net.) 

Kubozuka Yosuke!

Personally, I like his image in Onatsuki the best, because he's clean-cut there (for the first time, maybe?), and he's a doctor! XD BUT I like his other roles, too-- as the genius boy of Class 2-4, and the Zainichi in Go!.

Another semi-pic spam, right ahead!

Kubozuka Yosuke as Kikuchi Yoshito (Class Leader / Computer Genius Boy) in GTO Live Action

 
(Not sure if this is from Go!, but he's so cute, 'ne? Even if he looks a bit crazy. :P)

 
(L-R) Kubozuka Yosuke, Kuroki Meisa, Chen Edison from Onaji Tsuki o Miteiru (Onatsuki)

I'll probably watch his drama Long Love Letter next. I'm so confused as to which drama to see next, I have so many to catch up on! I mean, I still haven't seen all of the dramas of Yamapi that I want to see, and Sorimachi Takashi's, and now, Kubozuka Yosuke's just added to the mix! So I guess now I'm thinking it's a lucky thing that Tamaki Hiroshi doesn't have that many j-doramas under his belt and that his movies are hard to find. Plus, Long Love Letter has both Kubozuka Yosuke and Yamapi, so it'll be like hitting 2 birds with 1 stone! :P

It's got some bad reviews, though. Ah... But I like sci-fi anyway (especially time travel) so maybe I'll like it.

P.S. I've stopped solely listening to Poison, and am now listening to the entire soundtrack of GTO instead. Lalang. Share ko lang.

Bakit ka ganyan?!?!?!

[Oo, mababaw lang 'to. If you want to read something profound, move along...]

Just found this out: (I'm so stupid, I didn't notice it at first)

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POISON
(Great Teacher Onizuka Live Action Theme Song)

Sung by: Sorimachi Takashi
Lyrics: Sorimachi Takashi
Composition: Inoue Shinjirou
Arrangement: Yoshida Ken

Always, I want to keep believing…
Until the very end, I want to keep thinking…
that there has to be some meaning to my life.

Smiling with a cold glare
Do guys who have had their very soul violated
really feel the pain of shedding tears?

In this kind of world where you can’t say what you want,
Poison
I’ll go on with my life, still being true to myself.
Oh Oh

In this moment we face it head-on,
we have to fight in order to keep our pride.

Sitting on the stairs,
we went on talking of unending dreams
until the break of dawn.

The seasons change casually
I unconsciously drop my eyes
Am I really getting used to being swept along?

In this kind of world where you can’t have even small dreams,
Poison
I want to always, always be able to like being who I am.
Oh Oh

I want to cherish each day I can live freely,
so I’ll walk whatever path I want.

I don’t want to be manipulated by filthy lies and words.
Poison
I don’t want to turn away from my true feelings.

In this kind of world where you can’t say what you want,
Poison
I’ll go on with my life, being true to myself.
Oh Oh

In this moment we face it head-on,
we have to fight in order to keep our pride.

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This is translated from the original Japanese, of course (which you can see here: Anime Lyrics dot com). But anyway, THE POINT IS I totally love the song because I really like the meaning of its lyrics, and nevermind that he probably had consultants when he wrote it, and that he's not the one who arranged it and thought of the actual melody, still...

Lyrics: Sorimachi Takashi
T_T Why do you torture me so?!?! I have not been this obsessed about a celebrity in years. And now, Sorimachi Takashi comes out of the blue, all kakkoi and cute, and... and... now I find out that he's got a bit of depth in him, too. T_T

Of course, I won't be able to resist. DX

P.S. Today is Day 4 of my non-stop listening to Poison. Hindi nga ako adik. Hindi talaga.

After eating lunch at the office pantry, na-excite akong bumalik sa work station...

Dahil pwede na'ko ulit makinig sa Poison.

BTW, I'm switching songs now, from Poison to Forever, which is also by Sorimachi Takashi. I love him. <3 Hahaha! OA!! No, seriously. I really like his voice. :) Even if his other songs aren't that great, I love how low his voice is, and how much heart he puts into the words. (What?! May heart heart pang nalalaman. :P)

Right. I don't normally link to my other blogs (or entries), but weh... GTO is a special case. :P Hehehe. Just want to share with you all the happiness. XD

I just finished watching it last night. And I'm still listening to Poison. XD Sorimachi Takashi is <3 <3 <3. And he and Matsushima Nanako are <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 They're the best celebrity couple for me! XD (World-wide ha, not just Japan.)

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I have been listening to Poison by Sorimachi Takashi since yesterday.

I downloaded it at home, too. And listened to it the whole time I wasn't watching GTO. This is so far the longest time I've been listening to just one song, and still, I'm not tired of it. What's worse is that when I tried to stop, and switched to a new playlist to listen to other songs, without even completing one song, I found myself switching back to Poison.

It's not the best song in the world, of course. But there's something about it. It's like, I don't want to hear anyone else's voice but Sorimachi Takashi's.

If I had his other songs, I'd probably listen to those, too. But so far this is the only one I have, but I play it over and over again, because I know it's him singing.

This is really bad. I've only seen his one drama (GTO), and I'm quite sure that he doesn't do as good a job in his other shows as he does in this one. So maybe after this whole GTO phase, I'll go back to normal (and by "normal" I mean, I'll be going back to fawning over Takeshi Yasutoko and Tamaki Hiroshi). But while I still haven't finished watching the drama yet (I'm only on Episode 10, and there's still the special episode and movie to go), I think I will be thinking of little else but Sorimachi Takashi.

Despite having seen so many cute boys in Narnia: Prince Caspian yesterday, as soon as I got home (or maybe even as soon as the movie ended), it was Sorimachi Takashi who was in my mind. I just feel so happy when I think about him. :)

And now I'm flashbacking (is this a real verb? :P hehe) to that comic strip in Sinfest where Percy's praciticing lines to say to his girlfriend, and one of his lines went:

Are you ready for happiness?
I know. That should be the tag line of GTO Live Action to me. Because it has definitely made me happy.

I am all of a sudden incredibly happy.

And all because I'm listening to Poison, sung by Sorimachi Takashi. It's the theme song for the Live Action series, Great Teacher Onizuka, starring also Sorimachi Takashi. But I guess you already knew that. It is an incredibly popular series (manga, liveaction & anime) after all. And it's been around for a long time. But, I'm discovering it only now.

No, I don't think Sorimachi Takashi will replace Takeshi Yasutoko and Tamaki Hiroshi in my heart. (I'm not including Yamapi because although I like him a lot, I don't love him like I do Takeshi and Tamaki). Mehn, I realize now that their names all start with T: Takeshi, Tamaki, Takashi. Is this a sign? And if it is, what does it say, exactly? :P

Seriously though, I only accidentally opened the GTO file on my computer, but I wasn't able to press Stop right away, because... Because... Gah, I don't know what it is about Sorimachi Takashi! He just... Basta! He makes me happy (naks!). And it's different from how I feel happy when I watch Tamaki Hiroshi and Takeshi Yasutoko, because I think what I feel for them is really more of admiration (or idolatry haha!) because they're just so good at what they do. Takeshi Yasutoko is the best Inline Skater in the world (he's proved this several times! he's got world records and stuff!), and Tamaki Hiroshi is one of the best actors in the world (not just in Japan). While Sorimachi Takashi is... Well, I wouldn't call him the best actor, even if he's good. And he's not the best looking guy either (Tamaki Hiroshi is more handsome, in my opinion. And Takeshi Kaneshiro (another name that starts with a T). Even Yamapi is a lot cuter than Sorimachi Takashi). But there's something about him...

I keep playing in my head, the scene at the opening credits of GTO, where you can see Onizuka Eikichi (Sorimachi Takashi) at a distance (and he's blurred to boot), walking along a railway. You can't even see his face (or any part of him) clearly, but it's just all so kakkoi. Add to that the intro of Poison, and the smile on my face just doesn't fade away. I just can't explain it.

So, I'll post the picture instead:

And I love how he's married to Matsushima Nanako (from GTO as well, and the well-loved (haha!) Ringu). They're just so perfect together. Have they broken up? I really hope they haven't. If they have, please don't tell me. I want to be fooled by their lies. ;) Hehehe. It's just so cool, how he's married to one of the most beautiful girls in Japan, when (like I said) he's not the best looking actor in the world, and there are times that he just looks so silly, you'd wonder how he ever became popular. I think it's because he's tall. And he's built well. :P

Okay, enough fangirling. I'll just leave you with this picture, maybe if you see it you'll understand my joy. :)

P.S. It's raining (hard) right now, I can barely see what's outside my window. I guess this'll cause some problems later (I'm supposed to see a movie with my friend), but I love the rain. And with Sorimachi Takashi in my mind, nothing's gonna bring me down today! :D

P.P.S. I love fangirling. It makes all your problems go away, doesn't it? <3 <3 <3

I finally remembered just why I can't get over a certain problem.

It's because every time I'm just about to get over it, something new happens, and I'm transported back to Square One. Like that Snakes and Ladders game. Only, it hurts a lot more.

I just wrote something that's kind of like a "Goodbye" e-mail to a certain person who I'm really not supposed to be e-mailing after all this time (blame it on my lack of will power). I said in my e-mail that I wouldn't be annoying anymore and that I'll try to improve myself. I didn't expect him to reply. But he did. Only a minute later. And this is what he said:

"I'm going to the Toy Con tomorrow. I'll see you then."

O_O

Just when I thought that I can really start improving, he suddenly says something like that. He suddenly gives me the possibility of meeting him, which I actually can't do because, well I actually have work tomorrow morning. And in the afternoon I have Japanese classes, and after that I'm supposed to meet with a friend whom I haven't seen in at least 2 years. I can't give any of those commitments up because they're all real important. But then again, so is this one.

Why is it always a case of bad timing!? There have been several conventions this year already, why'd he have to pick the Toy Con, the one that happens on the day I won't be able to go to it, of all conventions?! This could of course be a sign, that maybe we're not meant to see each other, even if we haven't seen each other for 6 months, and have barely spoken to each other in all that time. Maybe this is fate's way of telling me that it will always be this difficult, and so I should stop trying. Maybe this is also fate's way of testing me, I mean, my resolve. If I really wanted to get over him, I wouldn't want to see him anymore. But... It's the first time after a long time that he's said anything like that (or anything at all) to me, and I just... don't know what to do anymore. T_T

Mga tuta ng Kano, GO AWAY!

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My mistake was to read the reviews section for the English translation of the Battle Royale book in Shelfari. Because majority of the members of Shelfari are American. So majority of the reviews were written by them. And I don't want to be labeled as a racist or whatever, but don't you just hate how the Americans "appreciate" Asian art? They say they like it, and yet completely miss its point.

You can see it in the movies they've re-made. Especially the horror ones. I mean, they basically just exaggerate the effects (maybe to show-off their hi-tech special effects machines), while stripping the movie of what essentially makes it scary, like the mysteries that go unsolved. They still can't get over the movie formulas. To them, a story has to have a beginning, a middle and an end. They give endings to scenes that don't have endings, explanations to events you're supposed to leave to the audience to ponder on, and basta, they just completely miss the point.

For the Battle Royale book, some arrogant jerks complain about how the writing is so "elementary". Hello?!?! The book is about Junior High School students. And while that's not elementary, still, you would think that elementary students would be interested in it as well, so why wouldn't the author use language that's for elementary students to understand? Also, it's a translated version, so there's no way you can say for sure if it's "badly written", unless you speak Japanese and have read the original version. Isn't it common sense to know that when something's "translated" then of course, it wouldn't be exactly like the original, and therefore some meanings might get lost? And it's not the fault of the translator either. It's just that some Japanese words don't have direct English translations, and so rather than using something that sounds profound, then the translator would choose to use what's more understandable. Gah. People are so stupid.

And the book keeps getting compared to Lord of the Flies, or (Gah!!!) Survivor and other "reality shows". WTF?!?! Reality shows are crap. They don't kill each other in reality shows! And in Lord of the Flies, the kids started fighting with each other because there were no adults to supervise them, which is just way way contradictory to Battle Royale, because in Battle Royale, it's actually even the adults who came up with the idea to have these kids kill each other.

Somehow, I feel like the book shouldn't have been translated into English, because the Westerners would just ruin it (like they do with all the Asian movies they re-make). But then, I can't speak Japanese, so I need the English version, too. I'm not sorry I speak English and I'm not saying that all Americans are bad. It's just that I wish they'd know that they're not the center of the universe, and try to understand other cultures first, so they can really truly appreciate what the art is all about.